WHY IS MAKING A BABY SO FRICKEN HARD?!
You would think that it would be easy– I mean, people get pregnant accidentally ALL THE TIME– how hard could it be to actually get pregnant when you want to. Answer: extremely hard.
This month was a lot different than our first month trying to conceive, mainly because I was not such a spaz and actually tried to relax. I did a good job not being so stressed out, when the fertile week arrived I whipped out my Clear Blue Digital Ovulation tests and began tracking– I thought that maybe if we had sex closer to ovulation we would up our chances of success. I got the circle icon for four days and then began to question the tests- last month I had reach my flashy smiley face at this point- so I asked Michael to go buy me a pack of the nondigital Clear Blue dye ovulation test. I took one as soon as he got back home and that test line was SO DARK. To be honest I was a bit annoyed that we could have missed my peak because the digital had been negative that same morning and I wouldn’t have tested again if I hadn’t questioned the test. I did take another digital test later in the evening and it was a solid smiley face which represents my peak and further validated the dye test from earlier.
After the dye test was positive, we “did the deed” and also decided to try out Preseed Fertility Friendly Lubricant . The reviews on Amazon are amazing and basically make it out to have some magical baby making powers–so many women said that they got pregnant after the first month of using it! We used it the day of my peak and also the day afterwards and then the two week wait began. I did make my pineapple smoothies again up to 6 days post ovulation (dpo), but this time I did not track any and every single “weird” or out of the ordinary symptom. I also did not have the desire to test super early like last month– I didn’t feel like having my feelings hurt by a stupid piece of plastic with pee on it lol. I used the Countdowntopregnancy.com implantation calculator to try and determine when the best day would be for me to start testing and it said 10dpo would be the earliest since implantation would most likely occur 9dpo. 10dpo came and I took my first test only for it to be negative– but my hopes remained high, it could still just be too early.
I felt really good about our chances this month- I was so much less stressed and I was sure that made a HUGE difference in things going according to plan. I took another test 12dpo in the morning, the day before my period was expected to arrive. Negative. The doubt set in and all hope left. I knew if I couldn’t see even the faintest of positives that the likelihood of us being pregnant was small. Sure enough later that night my cramps began which is my body’s signal to me that my period is arriving within 24hrs. As I sat on the couch feeling the dull pain of my cramps I couldn’t fight the disappointment and frustration that another month had past and we had nothing to show for except an empty uterus– so much for the magical baby making lube lol.
I know we are still so early in our pregnancy journey and I know it take some couples years to finally see that positive line on a test, but I am still disappointed this isn’t as easy as we had hoped. Onto month 3- will update soon
Xoxo-Corissa