Guys- I REALLY thought this was our month, which makes the arrival of Aunt Flo that much more devastating.
This was my first month using my new Ava Bracelet- it takes one full cycle for the data to be super useful, but I really liked using it track my body temperature. It arrived on cycle day 6 so it was only about to capture about 80% of the monthly data, but with today being cycle day 1 I am excited to be able to start comparing. Because it was my first month, it did not capture my ovulation day correctly, but luckily I was also using OPKs to track that and upload that data into the other apps (with the Ava app that now makes 4…don’t judge me). Thankfully my cycles have begun to level out and are now running on a more regular schedule and right on cycle day 17 I got that positive OPK test!
We “did the deed” SO MUCH THIS MONTH- like, I was SURE it worked. I watched my body temp rise and start to experience symptoms unlike I have in the past- SUPER hungry, tired, my boobs hurt like a MOTHER- but I sucked it all up and just kept my fingers and toes crossed that this was all leading to a positive sign.
It didn’t…. and once again I broke down sobbing uncontrollably while my dear husband hugged me tight. He is seriously amazing and I am so lucky. I think what stung most about this month failing was that we celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary on the 22nd and if I was pregnant I would have been able to surprise Michael on our anniversary.
We are starting to get more creative (lol). A friend of ours told Michael about how her and her husband struggled to conceive their 2nd child- they traveled to the Philippines to visit family and found a necklace handmade by the Ifugao in the Corderilla mountains in the Philippines. She bought it and wore it during her next cycle and got pregnant. She told us how she has passed it around to friends and the same thing happened to them– so now the sisterhood of the traveling fertility necklace is on its way to me and I could NOT be more excited. Like I said, we gettin’ creative.
Michael said the absolute magical thing to me this month after I broke down crying: “This wasn’t supposed to be OUR baby. They are still waiting to show. Just imagine how happy you will be once OUR baby is here.” I am holding onto that thought, knowing just how LOVED our baby will be once they finally arrive.
Onto month five. Talk soon!
Xoxo- Corissa